Liz remembers experiencing episodes of depression since an early age but completed her university degree and worked as a medical doctor for many years. The story starts with the description of a psychotic episode that she experienced for the duration of one summer. Diaries kept from that time were used for the story, giving the episode detail, helped by a poem also written at the time. The depression gradually got worse over the years, despite trying more than twenty different antidepressants and mood stabilisers, regular exercises and prolonged courses of psychotherapy, causing an early retirement and eventually hospital admissions. Finally, ECT was recommended, and it worked despite the very long and resistant type of depression. The improvement was incomplete, though; it required maintenance treatment and caused marked memory problems, which are also described in detail.